STAGNANT

In the profession of teaching, feedbacks are very important for a rookie like me. I can even count the number of days that I actually take over a class. It's not many. I don't mind criticism at all. Just as long as I know that I can move on to a newer level, improving on what I know and do. I know that I can do better than that. In the recent events that I have experienced over this week, I find myself in a stagnant water. A place where I feel that I cannot move on. No feedbacks are given, at least a scolding will make me feel much better. I need to know what's the next action that I can take to improve.

It's a terrible feeling for someone with so much passion for teaching to feel like total CRAP. I have reflected a lot on my actions and I can't pinpoint what went wrong. I have children being very rude to me, one even stuffed (literally) object into my face. I have reprimanded that boy and I'm sure nothing get into his head. What's wrong with the children?

I'm in a stagnant stage right now, totally paralyzed to what I shall do next. I would really appreciate if someone could offer a piece of advice. I'm almost coming to a conclusion that putting effort to do something creative and fun for children to learn DOES NOT PAY.

Fellow colleagues, I do hope that I'll find back my old self and be motivated to churn out more ideas to share. Feeling really down at the moment. I've prepared some lesson plans and ideas before my worst experience. Here's the items.

Thanks.

-elly-

The object of teaching a child is to enable him to get along without a teacher.
- Elbert Hubbard (1856-1915) American author, editor and printer.